Onward and Upward

So, I felt a little better today. For the past three or so days, I've had a bit of a cold/flu, but today was a definite improvement. I spent most of the day doing stuff, not just thinking about doing it.

I caught myself making a list of things I should do as I was trying to take a nap -- I don't know why my mind always seizes that tender time before sleep takes me over to rattle on about what I haven't done, but it sure does. However, I also got to thinking of a list that I found in a notebook that I had written in while in Thailand. In this notebook, I had a list consisting of probably more than 100 things that I told myself I should do/wanted to do my senior year back in PA. This list included things like playing guitar at nursing homes, meditating every day, getting a job (or more than one), going horseback riding, organizing a community carpooling system for grocery shopping, exercising every day, etc.....

SO, I got to thinking that maybe my pre-napping stress isn't something that I always have to listen to. Or maybe, when my head stresses in general and tells me all the things I "should" do, maybe I "should" (haha) practice not listening.

I know there's at least one person in my life who has told me to shake off the shoulds. I ought to listen to her. Still, listening and actually being able to do that -- it's rough. Pretty difficult.

Also, a random sidenote, I read up a bit on astrology today (which I still hold as a pseudoscience, though an entertaining one) and had a hilarious time with my mother and sister, hearing our personality traits portrayed rather accurately by this distinctly British text. It was lots of fun. :) I'd like to think that with my late July (and induced) birth, I retained all the best characteristics of both Cancer and Leo.

What do y'all think?